"When you left, I need you to understand that I’m not blaming you, but when you left I was very numb for a while. I remember that I slept well that night. It took a couple of days for me to realize that we were done. When it hit, it felt like how I’d imagined it’d feel to swallow razor blades. I’d spent many times with them pinched between my thumb and index finger. I remember that I couldn’t tell you that I relapsed because you’d blame yourself. I cried a lot. It wasn’t your fault. For a while your name was triggering to me. I think the worst part was that I knew I couldn’t hate you. I wanted to be mad at you, I tried for a while. It’s been a year and I’m okay now. I miss you, but I’m not crying anymore."
- A letter to the boy who broke my heart at sixteen, v.m. (via anxius)

(via sad-but-sasssy)

it pains me to know we aren’t anything anymore, haha

"You do care. You care so much you feel as though you will bleed to death with the pain of it."
- J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix (via avvfvl)

(Source: theunquotables, via chihiroslegs)

me: i am actually so happy with my life right now for once

next day: *everything fucks up*